My mind fails me. It's been a decade since I've been without her, and I'm starting to forget what she even looks like. I have these sketches in my mind as to what she may look like - never sure if it was all in my mind.
White fur. Pegged arms. a stitched nose. no tail.
I search pages and pages of pictures to find her, but it's not as easy. No name. No manufacturer.
Where could she be?
Even if I found her, would it be the same? Could we pick up from where we left off?
Is an identical manufactured replica enough to calm my anxieties?
It's been a decade, at least. Still, I am up at 4AM in the morning, searching pages upon pages for this childhood friend.
I get so close sometimes...but the nose isn't right, this isn't the right material, there's a tail...
Sometimes I wonder if my mind has manipulated the picture, and I've already passed her a hundred times yet not know.
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